In Search of The Light...

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So Amanda gave me this question the other day, "Take away your name. Take away your roles in life. What is left? Who are you?" Well while I was walking last night, I was thinking about this question, and I thought you know most people are defined by what they have done and who they have been raised around...how can there be something left when you take this all away? Then I thought back and found the answer, we are who we were when we were children. People always look at kids and think they are so uninhibited, wish I could be like that. Well you can, society has put us all into what we are, and we have forgotten our "true" behaviors. Think back to when you were young. You most likely acted very differently then you do now. Because at some point in time, someone told you that you weren't "cool" or some other phrase because you were different and not like everyone else. I thought back to my younger self. I was very different from what I am now. I was selfish, I was cunniving. It was my way or the highway. Now even though I had all these bad things, the one good thing I found was I was a leader. I never followed, now the reasoning was bad reasoning and I was an immature leader, but a leader none the less. So I want you all to think back to who you were as a kid? Were you more friendly, more steadfast? And now think how you can incorporate these things into you. Better yourself so you can better the world.

Well your Happy, yes thats right your so happy, so
pretty and witty and if i go on any more i will
have to pay for the rights of this song so,
great jop your one of the lucky ones.


What Emotion Dominates you?
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Phoenix:
Phoenixes are litterally birds of fire. They are
brave and majestic and have the ability to be
reborn from their own ashes. You are strog
willed an confident- a true leader. Although
you can get down in the dumps occasionaly you
are never there for long. Many people flock
around you and like you as a friend.


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The phoenix has become my favorite mythological creature. I feel I've had more experiances of being "born out of the ash" and hardly ever being down. I also like dragons, but I think Chris fits that better. Besides you can't kill a phoenix, you can kill a dragon. I may post later today...and it be a meaningful post lol

So I just had this break through thought. So this story begins way back in the day with my grandpa. Now my grandpa was your average blue collar coal miner. Now I never knew my grandpa because he passed away before I was born, but do to the fact he was a coal miner I doubt his education was very high, but looking at the rest of my family he had his moments of intellect, because no one is white trash in my family. But anyways, I've heard stories from my granny and some of my aunts about his business "endeavors". One such story involved my grandpa and one of his neighbors. This neighbor kept bothering my grandpa over this small piece of land and they kept digging deeper and deeper to try and get this land. And my grandpa just gave it to her. No charge, no argument. I always thought "how could my grandpa give into her, and then not get any money or anything for it?" But I think I now understand why. My grandpa had a very large family. But I've never really heard stories of "hard times" with my family. My grandpa is the only one who worked, while my granny was a house wife. So my grandpa must have made enough money to support my family. So my grandpa must have been "why do I need this? I don't need the stress she is giving me, and my family will be just fine without it. Besides I know what I've earned." I believe my grandpa was wise enough to realize that he wasn't working on this earth for this life but the next. He did what he needed to support his family, and all the other work was rewarded in a far better place, Heaven. Now if you aren't a Christian like me, I don't mean to offend, but hey it's my blog. I believe that this life is only meant to prepare us for the after life. Nothing in this world is worth a big argument, where will it lead. Nothing in this world is worth the stress it puts on us. This life should be about love, obtaining love, and learning to not only give but also receive love. Now this task does involve stress, but nothing can be easy. What is it worth if something is just handed to you? So I think it is time for me stop worrying, everything will work it's way out. I believe that life is a combination of pre-destined and free will. The paths or many, but the goal is the same. How you reach it is life, and how you handle it is the person you will become. Please leave comments on this one if you feel moved to do so.

So I went to the movies with my dad tonight and we watched Shrek 2. It was a pretty good movie. Some great humor, and not a bad love story to boot. But now that I'm home I've just been in this thinking mood. Actually I've been in this mood for, oh I don't know, this entire semester! I've felt in the dark for the most part. Like someone has pulled the covers over me in my own little world. I'm sure of the final answers, I know the goals, and what I want in life...but the journey is confusing me. Maybe I'm over analyzing...Analysis is paralysis as Mr. Wing has said. But it's too late to stroll down life being a blissful idiot. I've done that, and though it is very easy it has no goal. It's like cheating on a game when you first get it. Maybe after you've tried and tried it's all right to get help or put in a cheat code, but it takes all the fun out of the game if you cheat from the get go. I have soo much I want to do in life. So many books I want to read, but I don't have the time. So much music I want to hear and make, but I don't have the time. So many people to meet...but I don't have the time. Are we seeing a trend here? Has our society pushed us so we have no time! Or do we not realize how we spend time. If we think how much we watch TV, or goof off in a given day what else could we have accomplished? You know, I started this post of thinking of one thing, and I've managed to change subjects so easily lol. Was this semester a waist? Will it prove to be the turning point in my life? Or will I continue going down a destructive path of happy blissful stupidity...

You are Psalms.


Which book of the Bible are you?
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This one is for you Chris...


Dragon:
Dragons are very mysterious creatures who often
live alone in caves with hoards of gold. You
keep yourself from others and contain many
armoured plates for defence. However, you will
be kind to others if they are kind to you. You
are very thrifty and rarely waste any money.


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So here are two more quizes that I've taken to pass the time. The instrument one is more like me, but it was the second time I took it because I think I tryed to get tuba on the first time and it wound up being baritone, yuck! So here we go...


Aphrodite/Eros


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Where in the marching band do you belong?
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So I just got a call from Dr. Baker, literally 5 min. ago. And the money went through, I'M GETTING A NEW TUBA!!! No more playing on the conn trashcan that I've played on for 2 years. I'm actually getting a horn that has a big bore size. She doesn't have the horn just yet, but they are buying it. And as soon as she gets it ready I can come and get it...woohoo! Well, I'm gonna go now, I'll let you all know when I get my new horn though :D, till then take it easy.

Yes, I found another little quiz, atleast this time I came out as a male character lol.


You're GI Joe with the Kung Fu Grip!! You're
strong, tough, and know how to kick some ass.
Don't forget though, no matter how manly you
think you are, you're still just a doll. God
Bless America.


What childhood toy from the 80s are you?
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So I was bored, and saw this on one of Logan's friends journals and was curious about it so I took the test. After you read mine go and look at Amands's it' kind of funny lol.

I Am

Which tarot card are you?

Spiritual enlightenment, inner illumination, hidden power. Link between seen and unseen. Balance of positive and negative forces. Receptivity. Unseen guidance.
A young woman sits on a throne holding a scroll labeled "Tora" meaning "law." On her breast is the sign of the meeting of heaven and earth, the Maltese cross. Her crown is the full orb supported by horns, the crown ofthe Mother Goddess Isis, who rules all things changeable, shown by the moon at her feet. Her power, upon which her throne rests, derives from the creative principle of duality, shown by the two pillars of light and darkness. To those who know and love her she dispenses the sweet fruit of the world itself, symbolized by the pomegranites.

So today has been a really great day. It started off this morning when my dad and I went to get new phones...for a penny! So now I have a brand new toy to play with, woohoo! Then I had to take my Jeep to get serviced, and while I waited on that I was able to read my newsletter, and the Sinfonian, and I started studying for my Motorcycle license, yay for motorcycles! Then I went picked up the phones, and went to get my computer. Got to the place and he said there was nothing wrong with the hardware and it was probably the software. So I got my computer back...free of charge, sweetness! Then I got home, found a letter from Kristina, who is doing all right, and if you'd like to write her let me know and I'll give you the address. It was just a great day. The only thing that could have made it better was if Dr. Baker had told me that the school got the new tuba and I should come and get it :D. But all in all I couldn't have planned a better day. Tomorrow promises to be hard working though. Get up early, wash some cars and then go see my cousin Emily graduate. Well, that's all for now, take it easy.

Ah, you know I'm glad to be out of school, but I really didn't want to bring all of my stuff back...and half of Chris' stuff *shaking fist*. I've still got things in boxes, and to make things worse MY computer decides that it doesn't want to use it's modem, so I guess it's back to the shop with it, meh. Some good news though is I will be working the second week of Mason Co. camp! Woohoo! Hear that big, I'll be joining you on the second week. I also hope to be getting a new cell phone at the end of May, I don't really need a new one, but I guess it's just a guy thing with wanting new toys lol. My grades were all right, came out with a 3.54...which is a little better than my big ;). But I'm looking forward to some great things this summer, I just hope they all happen lol. Well take it easy, I'm off to enjoy my break!

Ah, I am starting to love summer more and more. Used to I liked it just because school was out, but now I am enjoying everything there is...I'm even enjoying the hot weather, and I'm a fat guy lol. Well, I hope everyone is having a wonderful time out there, and have a great summer. That's about all I've got to say right now, I've got so many things to keep me busy right now it's not even funny. So take it easy

Woohoo! This semester is officially over. This has definitely been the hardest semester I've had at school. Not so much because of the difficulty of the classes but of all the other things college involves. Learning life lessons is one thing I do believe college is all about. And I've learned many this semester. But to be honest, I wouldn't change anything that happened this year. Everything is turning up roses for all my friends. Screeching Cedar is almost done with college and he'll be going back to Washington to finish up. My best friend Richard is finally getting out of Morehead and going to Cumberland to work on getting his ministry degree. And I've grown up and am ready to take on life. I plan on growing in many ways over the summer and coming back a better person for it. I want to conclude so many things. Many of the things I believe in I know are right, I have no doubts in them, but I have doubts in why I am the way I am. Why I've not stood up for myself and just followed like a mindless idiot. Now I know to be a leader you have to follow first, and some things I am not supposed to be master of, but I want to grow up. I want to discover my other side, and become a full person instead of a half.

Well here is the first post...I really don't know what to say...First of all thank God this semester is almost over, it's been one of those life changing events. Guess that's why I'm doing this blog. That and so Screeching Cedar can read up on me from Washington. See Roomie! Now you will still be in the loop lol. Anyways I'll try and keep this thing updated, till then take it easy.