Sunday, January 15, 2006
So much on my mind right now...................................... :|
Comments:
Hey Francis, sorry I haven’t commented on your blog. So you have a lot on your mind, funny how that all hits you at 2:30 a.m lol.
First things first to comment:
PS I’m not great at this English thing lol.
I am sorry about you Granny its hard losing the ones we love. My family members are much older than I am so most of my grand parents passed away before I got out of elementary. My papaw passed away right before charismas about 13 years ago now, I still remember the gift I got him because he never got to open it. I cry now just to think about it, but I am sooo happy that I know a love that strong.
Humm Determination!! Hummmmmm let me get back to this
Girl Friends so this may sound funny because you close to one of my X’s but trust me I haven’t just dated one dated one girl in my life and besides that I speak words that have been handed to me from much older siblings. Matt Marlow is going thought the same thing as yourself at the moment (but he was engaged). When a relationship begins there is a lot of puppy love. You think that other person is sooo great. And it is a even better feeling when you find that person returning exactly how you feel “to love and be loved in return.” Now puppy love doesn’t last forever but if there is a good understanding, friendship, and care between both individuals the love evolves. It takes years for this to happen and there is soo much that could happen to cause things to fall apart. My older brother has been married for 16 years now and told me once that “I married my last best friend.”
So I would tell you that love isn’t what they sell you on tv or in the grocery store check out, or what a young mind would be used to because we have grown up with the wrong ideas. Love can not be defended by me with justice, but I can tell you that my mom and dad have been married 40 years now and are very close and they can’t answer that question ether.
What I can tell you is that some people learn how to love different, and some don’t learn at all. You have a big heart and you feel that you’re ready for a relationship that is more that just puppy love and I am sorry you got hurt. I didn’t know the girl but I would guess that she didn’t understand what a real relationship takes or how it evolves. Only time will heal such wounds but be glad your friends make good band aids.
Back to the at Determination thing!!! So I have been hurt really bad about 3 times in my life other times I didn’t invest that mush in to the relationship. Yet after I was hurt my charge speech sounded about the same as yours. I found what I was really doing was staying soooo busy that I had no time to think. This is not a good thing, yes you get lots done but staying in overtime isn’t healthy. Things like destiny, chivalry, honor and etc etc are better left for fiction books and the bible. Take each day one at a time and enjoy it, breath the air is nice! Do sharpen you skills, do become a man, just don’t think you can speed up time but staying busy.
Conclusion:
I admire how strong in your beliefs you are and I am sure you found your own path to your beliefs. And when you have troubles in your life that is the backbone you fall on to motivate you and give you strength. I at one time did believe the same as you did but when I question my beliefs a decision that changed my life for the better and worst. I found my own path and ended up on a different road than everyone around which caused huge problems for me from other ppl. Don’t take this like every other person I not telling you this to make you rethink things, or convert you but I am explaining myself so you can understand what I do when I fall on in times of trouble. Then hopefully it may help you. The path I follow is summed up by a quote I made “I do not try to study the creator that is impossible; instead I study what he created that is possible.” When I have hard time I think of things logically and in a third person point of view ( love, death, and life). When Amanda decided I wasn’t the one for her it killed me mostly because I didn’t expect it. Then I started doing what I usually do in a break up getting very busy and focusing on the future. Yet this time I had someone wiser than myself remind me that I was better than that and I have way too much common sense, and will power to let something so small bring me down.
So I say to you the same thing they told me “learning to walk again is hard when you learnt how to walk with someone. Yet learning to walk twice makes you better.” Remember you have friends and the next time you get overwhelmed with thought sitting in the dark you can call me, old men never sleep you know that ;)
Andy
First things first to comment:
PS I’m not great at this English thing lol.
I am sorry about you Granny its hard losing the ones we love. My family members are much older than I am so most of my grand parents passed away before I got out of elementary. My papaw passed away right before charismas about 13 years ago now, I still remember the gift I got him because he never got to open it. I cry now just to think about it, but I am sooo happy that I know a love that strong.
Humm Determination!! Hummmmmm let me get back to this
Girl Friends so this may sound funny because you close to one of my X’s but trust me I haven’t just dated one dated one girl in my life and besides that I speak words that have been handed to me from much older siblings. Matt Marlow is going thought the same thing as yourself at the moment (but he was engaged). When a relationship begins there is a lot of puppy love. You think that other person is sooo great. And it is a even better feeling when you find that person returning exactly how you feel “to love and be loved in return.” Now puppy love doesn’t last forever but if there is a good understanding, friendship, and care between both individuals the love evolves. It takes years for this to happen and there is soo much that could happen to cause things to fall apart. My older brother has been married for 16 years now and told me once that “I married my last best friend.”
So I would tell you that love isn’t what they sell you on tv or in the grocery store check out, or what a young mind would be used to because we have grown up with the wrong ideas. Love can not be defended by me with justice, but I can tell you that my mom and dad have been married 40 years now and are very close and they can’t answer that question ether.
What I can tell you is that some people learn how to love different, and some don’t learn at all. You have a big heart and you feel that you’re ready for a relationship that is more that just puppy love and I am sorry you got hurt. I didn’t know the girl but I would guess that she didn’t understand what a real relationship takes or how it evolves. Only time will heal such wounds but be glad your friends make good band aids.
Back to the at Determination thing!!! So I have been hurt really bad about 3 times in my life other times I didn’t invest that mush in to the relationship. Yet after I was hurt my charge speech sounded about the same as yours. I found what I was really doing was staying soooo busy that I had no time to think. This is not a good thing, yes you get lots done but staying in overtime isn’t healthy. Things like destiny, chivalry, honor and etc etc are better left for fiction books and the bible. Take each day one at a time and enjoy it, breath the air is nice! Do sharpen you skills, do become a man, just don’t think you can speed up time but staying busy.
Conclusion:
I admire how strong in your beliefs you are and I am sure you found your own path to your beliefs. And when you have troubles in your life that is the backbone you fall on to motivate you and give you strength. I at one time did believe the same as you did but when I question my beliefs a decision that changed my life for the better and worst. I found my own path and ended up on a different road than everyone around which caused huge problems for me from other ppl. Don’t take this like every other person I not telling you this to make you rethink things, or convert you but I am explaining myself so you can understand what I do when I fall on in times of trouble. Then hopefully it may help you. The path I follow is summed up by a quote I made “I do not try to study the creator that is impossible; instead I study what he created that is possible.” When I have hard time I think of things logically and in a third person point of view ( love, death, and life). When Amanda decided I wasn’t the one for her it killed me mostly because I didn’t expect it. Then I started doing what I usually do in a break up getting very busy and focusing on the future. Yet this time I had someone wiser than myself remind me that I was better than that and I have way too much common sense, and will power to let something so small bring me down.
So I say to you the same thing they told me “learning to walk again is hard when you learnt how to walk with someone. Yet learning to walk twice makes you better.” Remember you have friends and the next time you get overwhelmed with thought sitting in the dark you can call me, old men never sleep you know that ;)
Andy
I am personally amazed that Andy was able to respond so prolifically to a single sentence. In fact, you didn't even post an entire sentence, and he was able to respond to it.
Anyway, I was thinking that it might be a little late, since this post has been up for some time, but I have ears, and am very good at listening if you would like to talk. (I am a Psych major, after all)
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Anyway, I was thinking that it might be a little late, since this post has been up for some time, but I have ears, and am very good at listening if you would like to talk. (I am a Psych major, after all)
